Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Travel Journal#6.8: NYC, London, Radhadesh, Amsterdam

Diary of a Traveling Sadhaka, Vol

Diary of a Traveling Sadhaka, Vol. 6, No. 8
By Krishna-kripa das
(April 2010, part two)
New York, London, Radhadesh, and Amsterdam

(Sent from Leipzig, Germany, on May 19, 2010)


Highlights


Harinama in New York City

A Sweet Visit to Tompkins Square Park

Notes on a Vegetarian Cooking Class at Columbia University

Notes on a Brahmacari Meeting

Queen’s Day 2010

Radhanatha Swami Speaks at New York University (NYU)

Brahmananda Prabhu Speaks About Srila Prabhupada

Insight from Srila Prabhupada, Kadamba Kanana Swami,
Laksmi Nrsimha Prabhu, and Many Others


Where I Am and What I’m Doing


The second half of April was an unexpected adventure for me. Krishna says in the Gita that He is adventure, and so I can see it was a good thing. I planned to fly from JFK to London on April 17, and thus I took the Chinese bus from Philadelphia to New York. I spent the better part of that day at Yajna Purusa’s Bhakti Center in Manhattan at their monthly 12-hour kirtana program. Before leaving for the airport, at the advice of devotees, I checked with the airlines, and found the flight I had already done online check-in for was cancelled due to volcanic ash. As it turned out, the ten days I planned to spend in London, I spent in New York, doing harinama almost every day with devotees from the Bhakti Center. I had been thinking of visiting our Manhattan ashram as my friends Bhaktas Blake, Tim, and Ross, all had nice experiences there and I was attracted by Gadadhara Pandit Prabhu’s description of the college outreach they do when he came to Gainesville last year. I didn’t have time in my schedule for a visit this year, so Krishna made an adjustment to fit it in!


In New York, I also heard Brahmananda Prabhu tell about Srila Prabhupada’s early days in New York, I heard Radhanatha Swami speak to students at NYU, and I had a nice experience chanting at Tompkins Square Park. I spent part of April 28 in London, speaking at their lunch program and going on harinama. Then I took an overnight bus to Brussels where I caught the train to Barvaux, the town near Radhadesh, where I attended Kadamba Kanana Swami’s Vyasa Puja on April 29. In three lectures on the day, Kadamba Kanana Swami shares practical insight about the guru-disciple relationship. Finally on April 30, over 150 devotees boarded two buses and several other vehicles and drove Amsterdam for eight hours of kirtana at Queen’s Day, the world’s biggest street festival.


Harinama in New York City


While in the Bhakti Center I joined harinama regulars Om Hrisikesa Prabhu, the party leader, and Bhakta Dan, and Bhakta Alex (who has the nickname Vaishnava Das because he likes to serve the devotees), going out almost every day to do congregational chanting. On Sunday the devotees went out for almost three hours and on a couple of weekdays they would go out during the day as well, instead of distributing books. Almost every evening there was harinama from 8:30 to 9:30 p.m.


Om Hrisikesa Prabhu can sing for quite a while and has a great love for harinama which makes him a good leader. Dan is steady on the drum. Alex impressed me by his enthusiasm. In the day he works as a lawyer in the city, but comes out on weekends and evenings on Manhattan’s Lower East Side and distributes often as many as 30 small books during the harinamas. This makes him the biggest book distributor in the temple.


The daytime harinamas were surprisingly well received by vendors who have tables of their wares set up along some New York sidewalks. Often they would smile, clap, move with the music, and even say a few words of the mantra as our joyful party passed. You could see that they had developed a fondness for the devotees that was beautiful to see. There were also employees who worked in front of the restaurants who took great pleasure in dancing along with the devotees whenever they passed.


Once we chanted at 34th St. subway station for an hour because it was raining outside. I could see the interest in the faces of the some of the people, and we distributed invitations and prasadam to them. Then we had to stop because of the police. Next we chanted at Union Square for half an hour next since the rain had stopped. Then the rain began again, so we took the “L” train to another subway station and chanted another hour there. One young lady sat on the bench to wait for the train, and began chanting the mantra along with us. She told me she was a regular at the Bhakti Center 12-hour kirtanas. She said she just finished reading a text message she got from Ananta telling of a kirtana program at 7:00 p.m. at the Center, when she heard our karatalas ringing and thought, “Why 7:00 p.m? There is kirtana now!”


A Sweet Visit to Tompkins Square Park


My last day in America I went to Tompkins Square Park, inspired by one Bhagavan Dasa, a disciple of Hridayananda Dasa Goswami, who I met in San Diego, and became reacquainted with during my visit to New York. At the Bhakti Center, he was telling me he felt this block with 26 Second Ave. on one side, and the present Bhakti Center, 25 First Ave. on the other, was a very spiritual place on the level of Mayapur. This spiritual dhama, he explained also extends to Tompkins Square Park, where Srila Prabhupada and his early disciples chanted back in 1966, when the New York Hare Krishna temple was the only one in the movement. At first I did not appreciate my friend’s spiritual vision, but as I was playing my harmonium under the Hare Krishna tree in Tompkins Square Park, I felt the same emotions I did in Mayapur, as I chanted, meditating that this was the place the Hare Krishna movement began. On this earth, the Hare Krishna movement began in Mayapur, and in the West, the Hare Krishna movement began in New York’s Lower East Side, and chanting under that tree, thinking about Srila Prabhupada’s noble ambition of a worldwide spiritual movement was one of the most powerful spiritual emotional experiences I have had in recent years. As I continued to sing, some people sitting on the benches around the tree left, and a few others came.


After about twenty minutes, one man, perhaps in his sixties, who was sitting about thirty feet from me the whole time, came closer to sit, perhaps just ten feet away. Before relocating, he said something to me that I had never heard anyone say before, “Thank you for clearing the air by your singing.” I smiled and thanked him for his appreciation and continued singing, and he continued sitting, reading some book. His comment reminded me of Lord Caitanya’s glorification of the congregational chanting of the holy name for its cleansing effect. I marveled that here an ordinary New Yorker sitting on a bench reading a book was sharing his realization of this truth. After twenty minutes or so, when he got up to leave, I gave him the flyer I made for our public chanting programs, with the mantra, an a explanation of why we chant it, and web addresses for our centers, our music, and more information. I told him. “These are the words to the song. Our founder started singing in front of this tree in 1966. He envisioned a worldwide movement. People did not believe it would happen, but it did.” He smiled and said, “Thank you.”


A four-year-old girl rode her little tricycle around the tree a couple times, stopping to stare at me for half a minute each time as I played the harmonium, moving my head with the music and watching her. I wonder what spiritual benefit she gets for circumambulating the Hare Krishna tree. A group of kids with a couple teachers came by, and they were collecting odds and ends from around the park. They decided to include some bark from the tree and dirt at the base of the tree. It seems a lot of people unknowingly had a lot of association with that special tree.


I recalled as I made that visit to Tompkins Square Park, that I do usually go there when I visit New York, and I had not yet this time, until just one hour before leaving for the airport. It is like when I go to Mayapur, I visit places like Lord Caitanya’s birthplace and Bhaktivinoda Thakura’s home. Similar, when I go to New York, I visit Radha-Govinda, the first Radha-Krishna deities I ever saw, and I visit 26 Second Ave. and Tompkins Square Park, where Srila Prabhupada started his worldwide International Society for Krishna Consciousness against all odds, desiring to share the most voluminous spiritual knowledge with the maximum number of people.


Notes on a Vegetarian Cooking Class at Columbia University


Although Gadadhara Pandit Prabhu and the other brahmacari who does the program dress as Krishna monks, additional devotees who visit dress in western clothes so as not to intimidate the students.


If the oil is smoking, it looks too hot.


You can use a variety of colors of bell peppers to make the preparation look attractive.


Stroganoff was originally named after a Russian diplomat named Count Pavel Stroganov (1772-1812).


I was impressed to see a hundred people came, a usual size crowd for them. Gadadhara Pandit Prabhu mentions a local student article on their club: http://www.columbiaspectator.com/2010/04/13/food-meditation. He also advertises his weekly meditation program near the campus with a great breakfast. He also mentions a once per semester lecture with Radhanatha Swami, the last one being, “The Quarter-life Crisis,” and the next one, come up next week, being “How Superficial is Our Spirituality?” Then head of the new Bhakti Café on the first floor of the Bhakti Center told the students that when his café opens in mid May they can eat for half price for the first two weeks or so, a special deal just for them.


Gadadhara Pandit offers the food to the Lord with folded hands and chants the prayers silently, asking for the others to be silent. At the end, everyone rushes with enthusiasm to get into line for prasadam. Some regular students help serve out. He recommends people give at least a dollar to help maintain the program and purchase the food.


The students were sweet, and I spoke to at least five, personally inviting them to Radhanatha Swami’s lecture, telling how both my mother and I really loved his lectures and his autobiography. I also sent a halava recipe to one girl who really liked that traditionally popular prasadam item and became a Facebook friend of one who knows a devotee friend of mine. I told one committed student, originally from Paris, who serves out each week, about the youtube video of the very positive Paris TV news clip on our metroyoga program there.


Notes on a Brahmacari Meeting


Why strong sadhana?


1. It is essential for purity in thoughts, words, and actions.

2. Strict sadhana helps create the proper atmosphere in the ashram.


Radhanatha Swami’s definition—striving with all strength.


Sacinandana Swami asked Radhanatha Swami to describe devotional service in one word, and he replied, “Absorption.”


Effects of weak sadhana:


1. Material desires flood the heart, and the desire to fight them goes away.
2. We start paying more attention to things other than Krishna.

3. We become expert in justifying our illusory attachments.

4. We lose taste for devotional service.

5. We become too concerned with our health.


When two people with weak sadhana get together, they start fueling each other’s material desires.


When we isolate ourselves from devotees, especially those with strict sadhana, it is a bad sign. It means that we want to be alone with our material desires.


If you have weak sadhana and your health becomes weak, if you do not have a good program for taking care of your health, then you look for someone to take care of you and that person is usually a lady.


A brahmacari does not point fingers at the lady and saying she is at fault.


According to Radhanatha Swami, if you are entering the grhastha life because you are feeling it is the best situation for you to execute spiritual life, that is alright, but if you decide to enter grhastha life because of the influence of a women who desires to marry you, that is not a laudable nor hopeful situation. Such relationships based on infatuations are short-lived.


If you cling tightly onto one of the five most important items of devotional service, you can easily make it as a brahmacari. Strong sadhana is necessary to attain this.


Obstacles:


1. Lack of taste, leading to lack of inspiration.

2. Lack of personal initiative. [If we do not have that, we will become attached to some lady who will motivate us to work for her.]

3. Mind.


We must learn to take pleasure in going against the demands of the mind.


As soon as you think you are a man, you need a woman. We have to think that we are the servant of the servant of Krishna.


Queen’s Day 2010


I have written in previous years of Queen’s Day, a street festival in Amsterdam attended by 1-2 million people at which 200 Hare Krishna devotees chant with enthusiasm, so I shall be brief. This year was extra special because Sacinandana Swami came (and promised to return in future years) and Parasurama Prabhu came from the UK, along with his band. As last year, Kadamba Kanana Swami arranged to bring two buses of devotees from Radhadesh, many who attended his Vyasa Puja the previous day. See Parasuram’s video and Queen’s Day videos from Bhakta Michel of Rotterdam to experience the transcendental excitement.


Radhanatha Swami Speaks at New York University (NYU)


Compassion is the greatest need in this world. Most of the million slum kids in Mumbai do not go to school because they are too hungry. The government asked us to help and we provide 210,000 plates. They want us to do 500,000, and we will do more as we have funds. Other problems like ecology are results of lack of compassion. Companies care more for their profits than the environment. Para-duhkha-duhkhi means one who becomes upset with the pain of others. Most of us limit our compassion to some only, but there is more satisfaction the wider our expression of our compassion. The great commandment in the Christian tradition is to love God with one’s heart, mind, soul, and that manifests as love for one another. A great soul sees equally all living beings because there are conscious souls. If we understand our own spiritual essence, we can see appreciate it when we see it in other living beings. Some say caring for the soul makes people callous toward hurting the body, but caring for the soul also means respecting the way the soul is embodied.


In Delhi at a roadside café, I saw a mother cow and her calf, closer than I had ever seen before. I saw they were playing, much in the same way as a human mother and her child. My host brought some food, and offered to explain it. There was meat and for the first time I made the connection between the cows and the meat. I excused myself because I couldn’t eat. I was vegetarian from then on.

Happiness is not about what you have, prestige, money, but inner fulfillment, which is based on our values. Ultimately fulfillment is to love and be love. This chanting of mantras has the purpose of awakening that love. The mirror of our mind is covered with dust, and we cannot see the love, but only the dust of selfish desires. Spirituality means to cleanse the mind to awaken the original qualities of you and me.


I was talking to the wife of a billionaire who invited me to go with him to Zimbabwe. He was telling me all his things did not satisfy him, only loving, being loved and helping others. His wife reflected how she was happier in her previous simple village life. It is not a matter of being this or that religion. It is a process of cleaning the mind to experience love of God and compassion for others. If we do not see our religion as a process that is meant to evoke our divine qualities, it will be an impediment not a solution. Satyagrahi is one who grasps the essence of the opportunity in every situation to grow in love and compassion. The externals have meaning only when connected with the essence.


When I lived on the bank on the Ganges, one friend Narayana, who was 85, would take me to his friend, Mohammed, and for one or two hours they would share their views on spirituality, and I would share mine. I asked how they could be such friends in the midst of so much strife over different religions. My friend said, “A dog will identify the master no matter how he dresses. God is the master of all. If we cannot identify Him in his different appearances, we are less than a dog.”


The mantra we chant helps awaken the love. Our action radiates and affects others.


Three days I was with a sister who was dying of cancer. Her husband told me she had said something very special. She was in the last stages of cancer, paralyzed and emaciated. In the final days she told her husband with a smile, “I feel I have unlimited eternal value because God loves me.” We all have the value because we are all part of God. Why can we not see this?


As educated people, you will have power, and power in the hands of compassionate persons makes a tremendous positive effect for changing the world. We should be so grateful for all the gifts we have, ever morsel of food, every drop of rain. A grateful heart is fertile for compassion to develop.


Brahmananda Prabhu Speaks About Srila Prabhupada


[Brahmananda Prabhu is the first president of the ISKCON, 26 2nd Ave., and personal secretary of Srila Prabhupada for many years, and he spoke at the Sunday Feast at Radha-Govinda Mandir.]


In February 1966, Srila Prabhupada wrote his Introduction to Bhagavad-gita.


At Srila Prabhupada’s sannyasa initiation, he was asked to speak in English, because his mission was to preach in the English language. Later he would tell different people of his plan to go to America. At that time, the India government required you have a sponsor who could take of you financially, and one Mr. Agarwal offered his son as a sponsor, for the young man had married an American girl and lived in America.


In New York, Srila Prabhupada rented an office to live in and would go to Dr. Misra’s to use his bathroom and kitchen. It was winter and sometimes the wind would be so icy, he had to turn back and that meant no bath and food that day.


Prabhupada sold a set of books to the captain of the Jaladuta for $20, so he had that when he arrived in New York. In those days, $20 was a lot of money as gas was $0.25 a gallon and the subway was $0.15. Prabhupada bought a tape recorder for a price that was the equivalent of a month’s rent. He would have regular evening kirtana (chanting) and lectures and sometimes no one would come. He would record them both, and then play them back. Srila Prabhupada remarked, “So in this way, I was hearing and chanting.” He also recorded himself reading his Introduction to Bhagavad-gita on February 19, 1966. Later the tape recorder and a typewriter were stolen, and Srila Prabhupada suspected the superintendent of the building he lived in.


Before meeting Srila Prabhupada, I had studied the Gita in college and written my thesis on Gita. I made it clear to Srila Prabhupada, that I unlike the other boys, knew Bhagavad-gita. Srila Prabhupada smiled approvingly that I knew Bhagavad-gita.

My professor said the Gita was written by unknown forest sages. My idea was that Krishna was a literary figure. Srila Prabhupada asked which Gita I was reading. I was reading Aurobindo’s version. Srila Prabhupada had me read a page of it, close the book, and recall it. I try but failed. Srila Prabhupada smiled and said, “That is alright. Aurobindo has written in such a way that nobody can understand.”


Brahmananda Prabhu has produced a multimedia disk of Srila Prabhupada reading his Introduction to Bhagavad-gita, as the text appears on the screen along with beautiful pictures of Krishna and Srila Prabhupada.


Insight from Lectures


Srila Prabhupada [from a lecture given in Honolulu on the verse in the beginning of the Sixth Canto of the Srimad-Bhagavatam which explains that anyone who has not undergone atonement must suffer. ]


The guru is as good as God because he gives real knowledge. That is his qualification. He cannot be a speculator; otherwise he is bogus.


The ultimate goal of life is to escape the transmigration process.


Nonviolence is the beginning of religious life because every living being is a son of God.


“Surfer,” I see as “sufferer.” He is preparing himself to get the body of fish. It will take him a long time to become human being again. He will have to go through 900,000 species of fish, then 2 million plants, etc.


If you like, you can go back to Godhead. Krishna has come to give such nice instruction. He has come as Lord Caitanya. Lord Caitanya came because people thought that Krishna’s instruction to surrender was too much.


Spiritual life begins with surrender. You can make your life perfect in a moment, simply by surrendering to Krishna.


Even after punishment and atonement, people still commit sins.


Mrgari , the hunter, lived in Prayag. [a fact I do not recall hearing before]


Srila Prabhupada says in the purport to Srimad-Bhagavatam 3.18.10, “Demons and atheists do not try to understand the Lord and so are subject to birth and death.”


Kadamba Kanana Swami [on his Vyasa Puja day]:


I stress reading since sometimes we neglect it because we promise to chant at initiation, but we do not promise to read.


The only line I recall from Rupa Sanatana’s father’s speech at his son’s marriage is, “I hope they soon have a house so they can argue in peace.”


Taking shelter of scripture is the only way to make life auspicious.


It should be possible that the disciples can cooperate together and serve the guru because that is what the guru wants. No just that we have to do because of scripture but naturally.


Krishna can do so much, but what can his representative to do? Very little. Only desire. He can desire that his disciples take advantage of their human form of life. Even Srila Prabhupada, although a very powerful spiritual master, could only humbly ask people to follow.


We are so tiny, we are always agitated by the material energy either positively or negatively, and therefore, we cannot seriously serve Krishna’s representative, our spiritual master.


Our feet are slipping, in other words, our minds are always distracted by the material energy. Thus we need the stick of support of the saints’ mercy.


Srila Prabhupada said in the presence of Tribhuvatha Prabhu, who told Kadamba Kanana Swami, “Krishna consciousness is so simple, you might just miss it.”


We may argue about whether we are right or wrong, but if we are differing from what our guru said, we are wrong right off the bat.


I got a lot of mercy from the Vaishnavas in this life, for example, Brahmananda Prabhu stood on my hand. So many instructions, I got from different devotees. Tamala Krishna Goswami invited me for lunch, and personally served me piping hot pakoras, when my water glass was empty, and offered me some words of chastisement.


Once I left the association of devotees. I went to the movies and there were Hare Krishnas, though not real, in the movie I saw. One devotee Maha Vira vowed to fast until I returned. I returned in three days.


My guru [Jayadvaita Swami] is very liberal and broadminded and had more faith in me than I had in myself. Many people are afraid of his karate blow use of language, but he has always been very encouraging with me.


If I have any strength it is the blessing of all these Vaishnava. I humbly request that you take seriously the practice of Krishna consciousness. I do not care if you want to live in the mountains or the city. I do not care if you dress very conservatively or in a way that is a little bit freaky. All I ask is please simply take shelter of the holy name, read Srimad-Bhagavatam, live near the temple or often visit, and do not disagree with the spiritual masters, but admit it is you who are wrong or in maya.


Mercury controls material intelligent. Jupiter controls a deeper, spiritual intelligence.


When we turn away from Srimad-Bhagavatam, we become Puranjana who is trying for enjoyment in the body.


Prabodhananda Saravati Thakura said that either we immerse ourselves in the ocean of devotional service, or we will immerse ourselves in the ocean of unwanted deeds.


Sometimes Vaishnavas disagree but immediately come together again because they are completely dedicated to the Lord’s service.


[After Vyasa Puja offerings:] I want to thank you for all you have done and all you have said. After all, it is voluntary, and it is rare that people ignore the glare of maya and surrender to Krishna.


After a few days in the movement, they made me a manager. My relatives were executives in Shell and Phillips, and the last thing I wanted to do was manage. I wanted to preach.


Krishna consciousness is so inconceivably exalted and we are so fallen, we just look at Krishna consciousness and marvel at it. I am afraid I may miss this opportunity. I had a chance to live in Vrindavana where there were many senior devotees. I could see that sannyasis were different, and I puzzled as to why.


What I desire to achieve individually is to be a strong individual, strong in integrity and character—someone who lives by principles whether it is easy or difficult. I wish to understand the illusory energy affects the mind and senses, but I want to merely observe that and not be affected by it. To do this, I must be strong in knowledge. We must think through, “I am not by body but spiritual soul.” What does it practically mean? “I am always the servant of Krishna” in all circumstances. I spend a lot of time thinking about the implications of these things. I want to support my disciples. I want to them to develop to be independently thoughtful people. I learned by the activities of Tamal Krishna Goswami that a guru must give the disciple a greater vision of his life than he has on his own. If there are things that are unfavorable in our lives, we have to remove them. That we are doing together. Essential are hearing, chanting, and remembering Krishna, and performing service. Another thing is kindness. We all want to receive kindness. It is part of being a strong individual. If my disciples were known for their exemplary kindness, that would be wonderful for me. We need challenge to grow. It is not enough to be part of ISKCON or be initiated. I compare the initiation vows to pearls that must be planted as Krishna once did to produce trees of pearls. There must be a balance between being natural and sacrificing. All together you are a talented bunch—singers, actors, movie makers, fire jugglers (even indoors). If we can bundle our talents in the service of Krishna, that would be nice. There is no difference between the gurus in that they are giving the same message. We are representing Srila Prabhupada and are resting on Srila Prabhupada. Srila Prabhupada said in Portland that anyone who chants and follows the four rules can go back to Godhead at the end of this life. Thrice he said, “I guarantee it.” I believe in naturalness. We have our natural talents and must engage them. Yet we must be willing to sacrifice it in a moment for our own spiritual advancement or the furthering of this movement.


The other point is to make a contribution. Once one devotee told me thrice that you could be Krishna consciousness without being in ISKCON. I thought about it and decided that philosophically it was possible, but that I wanted to make a contribution to ISKCON. We have our propensity and inclination. In Srila Prabhupada’s presence, everyone had to adjust, and many times it was tough, outright difficult, to do what he wanted as he was demanding. I do not have so much love for God that I can demand to the extent Srila Prabhupada did. We can only demand to the extent that people have love for us.


Before I die, I would like there to be 1,000 sannyasis in ISKCON. I said in a lecture that one should start thinking about sannyasa the day he gets married.


I know many of you are very good writers. Please use this in Krishna consciousness.


Jayadvaita Swami decided to create a BBT in Africa. He had been thinking about it for years. This year he took it up with enthusiasm. He organized a meeting that made everyone realize that they had to make a change in their priorities to put Srila Prabhupada’s books more in the center. The more we put Srila Prabhupada’s books in the center, the more we will find inspiration that would not be possible to get on our own.


I pray that whatever I have done to get some of Krishna’s mercy, that I pass that mercy on to you. I hope you will give Krishna consciousness to many conditioned souls and return to Godhead at the end of life.


Kadamba Kanana Swami initiation lecture:


We do not need to look for too many hidden meanings in the holy name. Krishna is the all-attractive Lord. By chanting we become attracted to serve Him.


To a candidate for brahmana initiation: “You will have enough time to play with the thread later on.”

We should not think we can do anything we want and expect it will all be made up for if we chant Hare Krishna. We must strive for purity.


We must always think that home is Vrindavana or Mayapur. Every place else we are visiting. In Vrindavana everything is favorable for devotional service.


We must preach something, but to the faithless we do not tell the intimate pastimes of the Lord.


Life is not a japa retreat. Sometimes will have maximum days, other times minimum days, but our minimum days should never be less than 16 rounds.


That you are taking intiation in front of Gopinatha, means you have a special relationship with Radha-Gopinatha. If you have difficulty, you can always come here and pray to Them for help.


Laksmi-Nrsimha Prabhu:


Lying to oneself is one of the greatest impediments of the advancing devotee. We have to be sincere enough to overcome this.


The sincere spiritual aspirant has the responsibility to know the qualities of a genuine spiritual mentor.


Notes on the Yadubara Prabhu DVD about Srila Prabhupada in New Vrindavan:


Prithu Prabhu: The first time I saw Srila Prabhupada he waved, and I bowed down. I laughed and cried, and had so many emotions at once. Previously I could never understand his accent, but when he spoke in person I could understand every word. It was practically a miracle. After that I had no trouble understanding his taped lectures.


Krishna Kumari Prabhu: When Srila Prabhupada was there at New Vrindavan we were like one big family. The senior devotees were very open and took prasadam with all of us and were liberal answering anyone’s questions.


Amarendra Prabhu: Someone asked how to show love for the guru. Prabhupada said by keeping the vows you made to him and the Deity at the time of initiation.


Satyanarayan Prabhu: At New Vrindavan, Baradraja led kirtana, Vishnujana took over with very melodious maha-mantras. Then Srila Prabhupada took over and led with such ecstasy and it seemed that sky opened up and love of God descended, everyone was crying in ecstasy. I cried for an hour afterward.


Visakha Prabhu: Srila Prabhupada spoke on Srimad-Bhagavatam 1.2 at Rupa Goswami’s Samadhi, where the Six Goswamis used to study scripture together, during Karttika and although we had heard it before, it was so powerful to hear in the setting, that it was one of the most memorable experiences in my life.


Ananda-maya Prabhu: In Hyderabad, 5,000 to 10,000 people came every night to hear Srila Prabhupada and 1,000 in the morning. There had been a drought for some time, but after four or five days, it began to rain and Srila Prabhupada explained it was due the sankirtana. The papers mentioned that.


Dinanatha Prabhu: I wanted to pursue a simple renounced life, but my mind and body protested so was trying to decide what to do. I told Srila Prabhupada about my plan to go to Hrishkesa and be an ideal brahmacari. Srila Prabhupada said, “Please do not do that. I wasted 12 years alone in Vrndavana. Just tell everyone you meet about Krishna.”


Yajna Purusa Prabhu:


Despite ideas of selfless love that I had from my family upbringing and from intuition, I came to realize at the end of the day, people are looking out for themselves. The great love stories in the material world are all tragedies. We hurt people, although we do not mean to hurt people. We destroy relationships, and yet we do not want to destroy relationships. And thus we become disillusioned. But when we come to spiritual life, we realize that the selfless love that we hoped for, yet could not find, is a reality and its attainment is possible.


‘Not dealing with things’ is another way of dealing with things.


The associates of Lord Caitanya were so happy in their spiritual ecstasy that they naturally felt sorry for those who were missing out. This is an idea that is beyond all religious sectarianism.


In Krishna consciousness, anything that is conscious is sacred, part of God, and deserving protection.


The more spiritually advanced we become, the more our own problems are solved, and we have time to help others. To see people stuck in a miserable situation with no alterative is the greatest pain. If we are freed, it is natural to free others.


Q: How do we benefit people who do not want to be benefited?

A: If you have a sincere desire to benefit people, Krishna will detect that and make an arrangement to benefit them. The book distributors have this realization all the time. The people do not wake up intending to buy Krishna conscious literature, but because of the devotee’s sincere desire, Krishna tells them in the heart to buy it, and sometimes they do not even know why.


Rasanatha Prabhu:


Viewing how we act in a temple environment, we see we still have the seeds of desire that originally brought us to this material world


Determination is the expression of sincerity.


Rationalization is using honesty in the service of the false ego.


In the beginning we ask “why?” later we ask “how?” and as time goes on the “how?” becomes more specific. In time, your guru becomes like your conscience.


When I gave my guru daksina [a donation of gratitude] after initation, I said to Radhanatha Swami, “Thank you for accepting me as your disciple.” Radhanatha Swami said, “Thank you for accepting me as your servant.” That sealed the relationship for me.


One devotee who works in the corporate world commented, “My personal trainer always tells me, ‘Don’t tell me what you can’t do. That is your mind telling you that. I am here to tell you what you can do.’”


Tolerance is the armor of a saintly person.


When one takes to spiritual life, we must develop tolerance, and if we take up the work of spreading spiritual knowledge, we must develop even more tolerance.


Tolerance means tolerating internal and external impediments. Our own minds are like a roommate who is always babbling nonsense.


The first effect when someone does not appreciate our service is to lose enthusiasm. Therefore we have to practice tolerance. Without becoming tolerant, we cannot maintain steady determination in our devotional service.


Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakura seemed to become more encouraged the more obstacles he encountered. He regarded opposition to be evidence that his propaganda work was becoming effective.


Not one saintly personality has been spared. Everyone has been given some test by the Lord.


Q: Sometimes demoniac people seem to flourish more than we are. How do we attain mental satisfaction in such a state?

A: We are just seeing a small part of the picture, like seeing five minutes of a movie.


A (by Rasikananda Prabhu) I just think about the people I am trying to please. If they are satisfied by my endeavors, I can be happy.


Krishna-kripa das:


Srila Prabhupada writes, “‘Mayavadi’s cannot understand the Lord has feelings.” In the material world, feelings pertaining to the state of the body have no ultimate value, so material feelings are negated. Even Krishna negated Arjuna’s feelings of compassion based on the body. The Mayavadi’s understand Brahman is spiritually blissful, and material feelings are illusory. Devotees understand material feelings are illusory, but the Lord has real feelings, and the devotees, in relation to the Lord, have real feelings too.


Mayavadi philosophers are described as “almost demons.” Here Srila Prabhupada is being a little kind.


(1) Sometimes he argues that since the demons who are killed by the Lord attain the brahmajyoti that the Mayavadis aspire for, both have the same demoniac mentality.


(2) Other times he argues that the demons try to kill Krishna physically, and the Mayavadis try to kill Krishna philosophically, by their impersonal explanations, that he has no hands, no legs, no eyes, etc. In reality according to the Gita (13.14), the Lord has these things everywhere: “sarvatah pani padam tat…” “Everywhere are his hands, feet, eyes, head, faces, ears. In this way the Supersoul exists, pervading everything.


One reason Krishna is displeased with the blasphemy of the demons is because the statements are incorrect, and He is a lover of the truth.


“The conclusion is that God is as sentient as we are.” This reminds me of the statement Srila Prabhupada in a Vyasa Puja to his own spiritual master:
“Absolute is sentient thou has proved

Impersonal calamity thou has moved.”


What can we learn from this verse and purport?


We can please the Lord by offering nice prayers, such as prayers offered by the great teachers:


“My Lord, I know that young girls have natural affection for young boys, and that young boys have natural affection for young girls. I am praying at Your lotus feet that my mind may become attracted unto You in the same spontaneous way.”


Arjuna offers nice prayers in response to Krishna’s revealing his divinity, “You are the Supreme Personality of Godhead, the ultimate abode, the purest, the Absolute Truth. You are the eternal, transcendental, original person, the unborn, the greatest.” (Bg. 10.12)


Demons consider the Lord to be an ordinary person. Here the Lord is playing along with that conception, claiming that He has no place to go due to having created enmity with Hiranyaksa. Demons claim property to be their own. What to speak of demons, even great demigods become attached to property. Indra even fought with Lord Krishna to keep the heavenly parijata tree, just a few hours after, by his calculation, he had been humbled by Krishna in His Govardhan Hill pastime.


Krishna talks at length about divine and demonic (Bg. 16). What is the critical difference? The divine accept scripture and follow it, while the demons ignore it. To ignore the scripture is foolish. From our periodic mistakes, we can readily see our own knowledge is imperfect, and therefore, if an all-knowing being has given perfect advice, it is wise to consult it. Krishna explains in Bhagavad-gita 16.23, that those who disregard scripture and act according to their whims cannot attain perfection, happiness, or the supreme destination.


Gadadhara Pandit Prabhu:


Hiranyaksa could understand from Varuna that the Lord could give him a good fight, but he did not accept Varuna’s version that the Lord would be victorious. The acceptance of only part of what one hears from an authority is a demonic quality.


Association with devotees is like fire. It can do great benefit or great harm. We cannot live without fire, yet fire can be incredibly destructive. Similarly by association with devotees, we can attain the spiritual world or if we are offensive, we can lose interest in spiritual life altogether.


By loose speech that offends the devotees we can delay our progress back to Godhead. It can be so subtle that we do not even notice this delay.


Lord Caitanya’s program is simple: chant and do not offend the devotees.

We see that great souls like Radhanatha Swami and Bhakti Caru Swami glorify each other when they meet in a deep way. We might try to follow this example.


Rajendra Prabhu:


Just by naming principles of nature such as gravitation, scientists erroneously think they have understood them.


One of the largest groups of people who have rejected the idea of evolution are doctors, who, because of their training and work, can appreciate the great complexity of the human body.


In the womb, we are in complete sedation for nine months and then we take birth and we are completely helpless and have no clue who we are or where we are. Then we become completely addicted to our mother’s milk. Nothing else has any meaning. If we do not get it, we cry like anything.


This world is a shocking experience, and we are keeping ourselves in illusion so we do not have to deal with it.


Divya Prabhu:


Due to the volcanic ash, 67,000 flights were canceled. The recent earthquakes can be seen as the earth reacting to all our abuse of her.


Because the earth is the wife of Lord Varaha, when we honor the earth, we are honoring the wife of the Lord.


By your practice you can see how the Lord takes care of you.


When I was in my twenties, I had a book table in Bulgaria, and one atheistic man came by and started shouting “These books are all illusion. Don’t buy them. You are deluding people.” He went on and on, saying all kinds of insulting words and attracted a crowd. I prayed to Krishna and felt inspired to tell him, “Please sir, I have legal permission to be here, kindly step over to the side and attract attention to yourself there.” Initially, I was upset by the man, but then I concluded that Krishna sent him for some reason. A few days later, he came up to my table. I was apprehensive, but he said he wanted to buy a book. I asked why he had changed his mentality. He said he had a dream in which I told him he should buy some books. And so he asked which one I recommended, and I suggested Life Comes from Life.


At my cooking classes, I always cook extra and encourage the people to take some to their family members, and they love to do this.


Mohammed quote, “Die before you die.”


Martin Luther King quote: “A man who won’t die for something is not fit to live.”


Notes on a Caitanya-caritamrita class on Sunday by speaker whose name I forgot:


Bhakti is very natural. There are so many songs on the radio. But who is singing about knowledge? Who is singing about austerity? No, everyone is singing about love.


Focusing on our intention to please Krishna, we can more easily become detached from the results of our work.


Advaita Acarya cried out to the Lord repeatedly to successfully induce Him to come.


Jayadvaita Swami tells a story that Srila Prabhupada and the devotees were at an airport, and one boy wandered away from the group. Srila Prabhupada noticed and commented that that boy was very bold. Then the boy suddenly realized that he could not see his parents, and he started crying like anything. Srila Prabhupada made the point that this is actually our situation when we boldly leave Krishna.


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yasya deve para bhaktir

yatha deve tatha guroh

tasyaite kathita hy arthah

prakasante mahatmanah


“Only unto those great souls who simultaneously have implicit faith in both the Lord and the spiritual master are all the imports of Vedic knowledge automatically revealed.” (Svetasvatara Upanishad 6.23)


Saturday, May 01, 2010

Travel Journal#6.7: Tallahassee, Pennsylvania, and Delaware

Diary of a Traveling Sadhaka, Vol. 6, No. 7
By Krishna-kripa das
(April 2010, part one)
Tallahassee, Pennsylvania, Delaware

(Sent from Radhadesh, Belgium, on May 1, 2010)


Highlights

First Friday in Tallahassee

Graceville Prison Program

Quaker Meeting on Easter

Last Program Success in Tallahassee

Three Harinamas in Pennsylvania and Delaware

Visiting Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami

Insights from Hridayananda Dasa Goswami and Bhurijana Prabhu


Where I Was and What I Did


I spent the first week of April in Tallahassee, where I chanted at First Friday, did a prison program with Daru Brahma Prabhu, and attended a telephone lecture with Hridayananda Goswami, arranged by Garuda Prabhu at his Peace on Earth Center. I also attended Quaker meeting on Easter and distributed prasadam. The second week I assisted my diksa guru, Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami, and his assistant, Baladeva Vidyabhusana Prabhu in Delaware. That week I also went on harinama on South St. in Philadelphia, Rehoboth Beach, Delaware, and New Hope, Pennsylvania.


First Friday in Tallahassee


I was impressed with the large number of people coming to get Daru Brahma’s spiritual vegetarian dinner at First Friday. At some times there were thirty and possibility even forty people waiting in line, the biggest crowd I had seen in my five times coming to First Friday. For me it was a little austere as I did not find anyone to chant with me, so I just played the harmonium and sang by myself for about two and a half hours. The highpoint of the experience for me came later when Daru’s assistant Joey told me about a girl, who he talked to, who really loved both the food and the singing. She told him she could not get the song out of her mind, and to prove her point, she sang it for Joey. Now I have a very mediocre voice and a budget harmonium with a few keys that sound a little off, and for me it is amazing that despite those disqualifications, that the song would stick in someone’s mind. I think it is just that Lord Caitanya wants to give his holy name to everyone, and He is willing to engage any people volunteering to help and bless them with some success, just as Lord Ramachandra engaged the monkeys.


Graceville Prison Program


Daru Brahma Prabhu does a monthly program in Graceville prison, nearly two hours west of Tallahassee. There was a lot of security to go through to get in, and the environment was sterile. Some of the workers seemed despondent about their work situation. The prisoner most enthusiastic about Krishna consciousness, who originally wanted the program was transferred to another prison, but a few others still come. The day I went with Daru to Graceville, three men attended, one for just part of the time. Before our program, I was impressed to see in the chapel library the entire Srimad-Bhagavatam as well as many of Srila Prabhupada’s other books. It was the brightest spot in the prison.


We started by chanting for ten minutes. Daru Brahma Prabhu thought that was a little long, but for me it was the absolute minimum as we had almost two hours for the whole program. Then we gave them the choice of books to read, and one chose Srila Prabhupada-lilamrita, so we took turns reading from it. One of the men made a brave attempt to pronounce the Sanskrit, while the other skipped it. One of the men, who was very respectful, had some work to do in the prison library and could be with us only part time. He mentioned he liked the chanting best, but he missed the chanting that day. So Daru led a shorter but very devotional kirtana for him, and he was very grateful.


One of the attendees at the program mentioned someone was killed not long ago in the prison. Daru asked if that happened often. One of the men said that in the seven years he had been there, it happened perhaps ten times. When asked why, the prisoner explained it was either because someone did not pay their gambling debts or because someone cheated in a sexual relationship, and then he summarized it, “Gambling and illicit sex,” with new realization of their danger. These, he knew, were two things we as Hare Krishnas avoid.


We and the prisoners both benefited from hearing and chanting about Krishna together. It was good I came along with Daru. For me, the more devotees, the more powerful chanting and hearing, and the more likely the people will be positively affected. I look forward to doing the program again next time I visit Daru in Tallahassee.


Quaker Meeting on Easter


I was brought up as a Quaker and usually attend the Quaker meetings with my mother when I go home to Albany. This was the first time I went to one in another city, since I became a Hare Krishna devotee. Usually the Quakers meditate on God in silence in a group, and occasionally those who are inspired stand up and break the silence to share some realization. Perhaps two or three times, some speaks during the hour-long meetings. When I go, I usually listen to a least one realization, and after a few minutes, say something relevant from the Vedic knowledge that I have encountered. This time, Elizabeth, who I had met both at the Tallahassee temple and the Ocala Rainbow Gathering, spoke about maintaining a list of people to forgive in her mind. It was an interesting idea. Ideally we should forgive people immediately, but in reality it often takes some time to bring ourselves to that point. The idea of a list of people to forgive appears to deal with this reality. Forgiveness is one of many qualities valued both by Quakers and devotees of Krishna.


One reason I was a little inspired to attend this Quaker meeting was I heard from Basil, a vegatarian Quaker girl on the campus, that they sing every Sunday in addition to their silent meeting. I had been to other Quaker meetings as a kid, but never did I see singing as regular part of the worship, though I do recall singing Christmas carols with them was a joyful experience. As Hare Krishna devotees we learn that the congregational glorification of the Lord is the best way to connect with Him in this age, so for me it was interesting to see some of the Quakers moving more in that direction. About ten or so people, perhaps a third of the total who come for the silent meeting, for half an hour before it, stand in a circle and take turns singing songs from their song book, most of which praise God, the Son of God, or saintly qualities. I suggested a couple I recalled from my youth, one about the life of Christ and the other about the divine quality of simplicity. The one about Christ they sang previously, as I was late, so they sang the one about simplicity for me. I brought my harmonium, and I and a couple others tried to accompany the tunes.


I had brought a tray of cake from Daru’s lunch program, because from experience I know there are opportunities to distribute spiritual food at such meetings, and it turned out to be the week that they have a pot luck lunch, so it was very much welcome.


Seeking spiritual truth is a value among Quakers, and I enjoyed speaking to some of the people over lunch about different topics such as empirical evidence for existence of the soul being beyond the body and how one can argue that faith is present, even in the materialistic scientists who claim there is nothing beyond matter.


After the meeting, I went to Garuda’s Peace of Earth center, hoping to find some people there who might be willing to chant Hare Krishna with me. Sometimes people stay after his programs and help decorate his place, and once I had chanted as the others decorated. This time Garuda was there alone and was too busy to sit down and chant. Elizabeth decided to come, and so I ended up chanting as Garuda cleaned up his place and Elizabeth painted Lady Subhadra’s garland, and they both chanted the response along with me for twenty minutes.


Last Program Success in Tallahassee


The last program I did in Tallahassee was the Wednesday Bhagavad-gita class which was on verse 4.10. I was amazed because six guests came, a rarity. Two came from Daru’s cooking class on Sunday. The other four who came were three participants in a rehabilitation program, along with the leader of the program. Some of those had seen us at the Tallahassee Ratha-yatra and then again seen us and received invitations to our programs the next Saturday, when we did harinama, at the farmers market / art show. That harinama was at a new venue and Daru, Kruti, Ajay, and Ajay’s visiting sister had come. Daru saw the in charge person who he knew, and we decided to get his blessings for being there, rather than risk irritating him, and being kicked out. He suggested we walk around and not chant in a fixed place, and so we did. Some people clearly were happy to see us there.


After the Gita class and prasadam we all went to Garuda’s Peace on Earth Center for his telephone lecture with Hridayananda Dasa Goswami, who is Daru’s guru. It was nice to see that program really brought both Daru’s group and Garuda’s group of people together. Notes on the lecture are below. It was nice to see the new guests seemed to appreciate the program. I encouraged Garuda to do it monthly, as everyone benefited from the experience.


Three Harinamas in Pennsylvania and Delaware


Reflecting on the three harinamas, I went on in Pennsylvania and Delaware, I was amazed to note the great differences both in the locations of the events and the background and lifestyles of the devotees involved.


South Street: One Friday night on South Street, where there is a lively strip of restaurants and bars in central Philadelphia, we had a party of ten devotees, three men, three woman, and four children. It was cold and windy, but we still stayed out for almost two hours. I played the harmonium and sang for most of it and for part of that time one of the ladies played karatalas. At the end, Anindita Prabhu, who distributed books while I sang, sang beautifully herself and played the karatalas. Because of the presence of the women and children, people were less alienated than usual by the unusual appearance, language, and music they were encountering. I was pleased to see Ganga (Varuni), who attended some of my extra Saturday harinamas in Florida, happily came out although she was responsible for taking care of three children at the same time.


Rehoboth Beach: Baladeva Vidyabhusana Prabhu’s great kindness upon me was to organize a harinama at Rehoboth Beach, when our godbrother, Mukta Vandya Prabhu, who also likes harinama,was visiting. It was a new location for all of us to do harinama, and the day was a beautiful, sunny and warm Sunday with many people out. I mostly played harmonium and led, while Mukta Vandya played drum very vigorously, and Baladeva played the karatalas. We are all in our fifties, and Baladeva observed that people our age took more notice of us than the younger people, perhaps because of encounters with the devotees earlier in the movement’s history in America when they were more prominent in public. Still, a few younger people did smile and move with the music. One couple in their fifties or sixties, sitting near us, listened for at least forty-minutes. The man asked if they could get any of our music, which was certainly very flattering, as we are not a professional bhajana band. I gave them a flyer and told them they could download some music from the Krishna.com website. The flyer told a little about the philosophy and the chanting, and when Baladeva shook the man’s hand as we were leaving, the man said, “We’ll have to practice this.” The whole harinama was a wonderful unexpected experience, and it was especially nice to meet that couple who really appreciated it.


New Hope: New Hope is a small town about an hour north of Philadelphia. It has a lot of specialty shops and a few restaurants and bars. I wished to do another harinama on South Street in Philly where we would encounter more people, but this one in New Hope the already scheduled. Lord Caitanya wanted to give people in every town and village the chance to awaken their love for Krishna, so it is easy to see it was His mercy and that of His devotees, that the residents of New Hope were being given new hope in the form of a chance to become Krishna consciousness and live in the indestructible spiritual abode. Balabhadra Bhattacarya Prabhu, who was temple president in Atlanta for a number of years, has done a few programs in New Hope recently, and the devotees there decided to engage him in leading a harinama. This group was ten devotees, all adults, mostly from Indian background, with a couple Afro Americans, and myself, the sole Caucasian. I was surprised to see such a nice reception in a small town in Pennsylvania, as small American towns tend toward conservatism. Many people waved, smiled, and danced a little with us, although you could tell it was quite a new experience for them. We were a little challenged as rain sprinkled down part of the time, and we had to take shelter underneath an overhang. I was happy that Balabhadra Prabhu was able to use my harmonium for part of the time. Later Laksmi Nrisimha Prabhu mentioned he had good experiences in New Hope earlier in his life, and he recommended that the devotees also chant in two similar towns near to New Hope, across the New Jersey border.


Visiting Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami


I had a desire to render personal service to my diksa guru for a long time, but previously I was working full time with a devotee computer business or with Sadaputa Prabhu, so I did not really have a chance to play the role of his servant for a month like some of the other brahmacaris did. I planned to do so in December of 2008, but I think his other servants felt I was an unnecessary addition. This time, however, there was only Baladeva Vidyabhusana Prabhu, who had to do everything by himself, so I was a little bit of an asset. I began by waking up Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami’s deities, Radha-Govinda, Jagannatha, Baladeva, and Subhadra, Nrsimhadeva, Gaura Nitai, and Srila Prabhupada at 2:30 a.m. in the morning. Since Baladeva does not really relish waking up at 2:30 a.m., I definitely could help him that way. As it turned out, I did not really relish waking up at 2:00 a.m., but I could do it for a week. I have done my spiritual practice despite odd sleeping schedules, so I knew I could do it for a brief period without any difficulty. Baladeva would cook, and I would do all the dishes. I also got to read Sri Caitanya-caritamrita, my favorite book, to my Guru Maharaja as he ate his morning and evening meals. The real project was the scanning of his many books and manuscripts, thirty-five of which I completed while I was there, with a very nice scanner, that would accept forty pages at a time and scan both sides of them at once. I think the thirty-five books should keep his production people busy until I return from Europe in six months. He has many unpublished books of a months-worth of accumulated writing from at least as far back as the mid-1990s.


Satsvarupa Maharaja impressed me by his infallible program of rising by 2:30 a.m. at the latest each day, and usually earlier, for the purpose of chanting his sixteen rounds at a peaceful time of the morning. I hope when I am seventy years old, that I am so enthusiastic. He also writes daily in his journal, The Yellow Submarine, which is published on the internet at www.sdgonline.org and on Facebook. At present, he usually includes something on chanting (japa), a meditation on a Prabhupada picture, and some poetry, and some other writing also based on a picture. Although he has written about Srila Prabhupada for forty years, he still tells some new details and has some new realizations about Prabhupada’s greatness.


I did get to do one special service for him. From reading his journal I understood he was curious to understand Srila Prabhupada’s situation now as a liberated soul. Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakura gives some interesting information on the situation of the great liberated Vaishnava spiritual masters, which is quoted in Bhakti Vikasa Swami’s Sri Bhaktisiddhanta Vaibhava:


“When asked to disclose his svarupa by Srimad Bharati Maharaja, Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati replied that the svarupa of paramahamsas like Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura and Srila Gaura Kisora dasa Babaji is as they appear in this world, for their bodily features are transcendental and eternal. Such devotees are gaura-nija-jana (personal associates of Lord Caitanya). Gaurangera sangi-gane, nitya-siddha kori’ mane: “Gauranga’s associates should be understood as eternally perfect, eternally established in service to Krishna as His eternal associates.” He explained that devotees of Lord Caitanya have two eternal forms: in Gaura-lila they appear in male bodies, and in Krishna-lila as females. The form they manifest in Gaura-lila is also their eternal svarupa. Even their apparent physical imperfections are transcendental. For instance, Lord Caitanya’s associate Bhagavan Acarya appeared as lame because in Gaura-lila he

is eternally so. Similarly, the ostensibly non-Vaishnava names of certain devotees of Lord Caitanya, such as Jhadu Thakura, are their eternal designations.”


I had sent him that quote I found while proofreading the book, but he wanted the page reference so he could see it in the printed volume, so I was able to provide that for him.


When Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami had some difficulty a few years back it really split up his family of disciples, some rejecting him completely, some remaining loyal, and some becoming confused. For myself I went through different stages of being unforgiving and disappointed but ultimately decided his case is one to which verse Bhagavad-gita 9.30 applies perfectly. Because he is presently rightly situated performing his sadhana (spiritual practice) and preaching service to Srila Prabhupada, he should be considered a sadhu (saintly person). Our tradition supports rejecting gurus who become Mayavadis, who deny the personal form of God, or incorrigible hedonists who cannot control their senses, but not someone Krishna characterizes as a sadhu. Moreover many sincere followers of Srila Prabhupada continued to maintain a high regard for him. Bhakti Tirtha Swami would accept calls from Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami during the last few days of his life, when he wasn’t accepting the calls of any others. And he wanted Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami to write an essay for the Vaishnava community on the occasion of his disappearance from this world. Jayadvaita Swami is impressed with Satsvarupa Maharaja’s continuous dedication to improve the quality of his daily chanting of japa, Srila Prabhupada’s most important instruction, through his various stages of life, ever since he met him over forty years ago. Several Prabhupada disciples told me they consider that Srila Prabhupada forgave him, and that was my intuition as well. Srila Prabhupada forgave so many people for so many things, as long as they were repentant, and they again took up following his instructions in earnest. As disciples, we all benefited from Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami, being freed from karma, linked to the chain of spiritual teachers, admitted into ISKCON, gaining faith in the holy name, and gaining faith in Srila Prabhupada, through his many books about him and remembrances of him. Because I am indebted to Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami, I feel it is still appropriate to serve him, and I was glad to have the opportunity, although, of course, my contribution is not very great.


Insights from Lectures


Hridayananda Dasa Goswami via telephone at Garuda’s Prabhu place:


Lord Caitanya has taken the word “sankirtanam” and expressed everything in the same form, as for example, “marjanam”, “jivanam”, “snapanam”, etc. Lord Caitanya is using the same analogy that Krishna does in the Bhagavad-gita (3.38) about the mirror being covered by the dust of lust. “Darpa” is used in the Gita as pride, a demoniac quality, and Lord Caitanya uses the word “darpanam” for mirror, which means that which creates pride. “Becoming” and “bhava” are the same. “Bhava” means material existence because everything is “becoming” something else and is thus temporary. Forest fire is referred to because it is so completely devastating to all living beings. “Nirvapanam” means extinguishing like “nirvana.” “Candrika” means the moonshine, which makes the lotus spread its petals. The bride of knowledge is enlivened by the sankirtana movement. Thus Lord Caitanya compares the joy of derived from “sankirtana” to a newly married bride. It gives a cleansing bath to every soul. Vijaya indicates victory.


In the second verse of the Siksastaka, Krishna says He has placed all His infinite power in His name, if we can access it. He does not restrict or limit the time we can chant the name. You can chant all day, any time of the day or night. All this power is available to you at any time. “Arpitam” indicates an offering as in Bhagavad-gita 9.27. Here Krishna is making an offering of Himself. When we love someone, they may not want to give their love to us. But here Krishna is giving Himself.


Japa is our personal quality time with Krishna. With kirtana there is music, your friends are there, and there are other incentives. Japa is our individual private time with Krishna, and it is our time to develop our relationship with Him.


Krishna is patient. He is not a serial torturer, giving you just one life.


Struggle makes life interesting. If the other team does not really push you, the game is less exciting. You have to find a happy medium where you are basically happy but also get a good work out.


Q: Suppose one follows another religious process.

A: Let’s take the analogy of the parents. The real point is the child is crying out to the parents, not exactly what they say. If our real intention is the Supreme God, he knows that, and He will respond.


Q: What of those with post-traumatic stress disorder, who have been neglected by their parents? How can they cry out to God?

A: The Lord can appreciate whatever sincerity the people can manifest. We just have to try to encourage them to do whatever they can.


Q: Can someone attain God without the institution of religion?

A: I would approach it in a different way. If someone desires to love God, he will naturally seek the association of others who also desire to love God. You develop compassion, as your love of God is developing, because you want to love others. When we reach the stage you want to help other people, you naturally organize. Ultimately to love God, you just have to love God. It is not some commandment is coming down from the sky, “Thou shalt join an institution.” “The community of the wise, is the welfare of the world.” For me it is just a practical thing, we have to organize.


Q: How do you know if you are going in the right direction?

A: Just as for a person who is eating, with every bite, he feels satisfaction, he gains strength, and his hunger goes away, similarly if one is really approaching God, there are symptoms of bhakti (devotion). Just like if you are falling in love, you know you are falling in love. You should feel God’s presence everywhere, and you become more and more detached from material things. There are all kinds of stuff we do, not because it is our most noble spiritual intention, but just because it’s our conditioning. As our bhakti develops these other things diminish.


Bhurijana Prabhu [from a tape]:


Srila Prabhupada said of the scientists, “Give them credit for what they have done, but why do they have to say there is no God?”


When you read, try to think, “Srila Prabhupada is personally speaking to me.” Then carefully consider what Srila Prabhupada is trying to tell you. Even if you just read one sentence, consider how it applies to you and act accordingly, and you can attain perfection.


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sei loka prema-matta haña bale ‘hari’ ‘krishna’

prabhura pache sange yaya darsana-satrsna


“Whoever heard Lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu chant ‘Hari! Hari!’ also chanted the holy name of Lord Hari and Krishna. In this way they all followed the Lord, very eager to see Him.” (Sri Caitanya-caritamrita, Madhya 7.98)